lacking a point

Is it really worth it to post just to keep up with the everyday thing even though I want to go to bed and have nothing to say? Well hardly, but I am sort of obsessive when I give myself a challenge, especially a quasi-public one. Also, if I don't post now then I probably won't tomorrow either and knowing me it could be the first of the year before I log in again. And that, I don't want. There may not be much worthwhile to say today but I have high hopes for at least a few more days this month. So, there it is, phoning it in, as it were. Carry on.

happy together

They have changed even since last month but this is a nice moment to remember. Henry and Mia do fight every day to some degree, sometimes quite intensely, but I am thrilled by how much they play together and have fun together and really enjoy each other's company. For awhile Mia was more interested in Henry than she was in him but these days it is often pretty mutual. he looks out for her and she makes him laugh. They boss each other around and defend each other. Watching them together is one of my favorite parts of every day.

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It got to late and today was too hectic of a Monday that began before 5am. I am off to bed with little ability to form complete sentences. I suppose I could tell you how my boss filled a vial with saliva while I ate lunch in the common space in the office but really who would believe that?

sunday

I would consider a longer post, perhaps one about the challenges of kindergarten, but I have design work due tomorrow and it's 8pm. I went to a nice book club this afternoon and returned to two smiling kids in pajamas w/teeth brushed. So very nice. I then spent almost 2 hours getting the small one to sleep but so it goes. This was a good weekend but I really feel like I need three-day weekends on a somewhat regular basis. Around here weekends are for getting cleaned up, doing projects, cooking, having fun, relaxing, and sleeping in no particular order. On any given two-day weekend (aka most of them) we generally accomplish four of the six at most and that simply isn't enough any way you add it up.

birth control

If I ever think about having another baby just tell me to have a dinner party or plan any other exciting thing and tell Henry about it beforehand. We are having friends over (any minute!) and Henry has literally asked what time it is (even though he can pretty much tell time) and when they are coming and are they here yet (do you not have functioning eyes or ears?) for 2 hours straight. I would guess that he has probably asked/whined 200 times in that 2 hours. Mia just keeps replying that they will be here in "a couple a minutes," which doesn't please him. He has me really hoping they will be here soon too and that my ears will not suffer irreparable harm before that occurs. Thankfully for me K is bringing drinks.

calm

It's simply amazing what part or a day without kids can do for me. They are spending the night with my parents and left late afternoon. Jason and I cooked an early dinner together, which was quite good. It's the first time I can remember spending the evening at home doing normal things while the kids were away. Usually we eat out, see people, or do projects around the house. We watched Away We Go, which I quite enjoyed. It was perfectly odd and quirky and emotional without being wrenching or upsetting or overwhelmingly happy either. I cried multiple times but not too hard. It was touching. As surreal and strange as it all was, it felt very real. Also we liked the sound track. Two thumbs up. And, it's not even very late now. I am going to fold a few clothes and go to bed, tired and happy. Things would be perfect if we didn't have to get up and go to meetings at Henry's school, but that's life. I may not get to sleep in or clean as much as I would have hoped, but actually, things are still pretty great.

low level

The kids are still waking up between 5 and 6 am and I just barely got Mia down at 8 pm. Henry is coughing and tossing and turning although he isn't really what I consider sick. I had a very hectic day at work and didn't get things as finished as I wanted to. The dishes are dirty and there are toys everywhere. I have a huge box of organic herbs that I was so excited to get half-strewn around the living room and kitchen unpacked by kids instead of myself. The rain is pouring down. Don't even get me started on Jason's going-on-seven-month-illness and spontaneous rash that could last for up to two months. Nothing is exactly bad but nothing is particularly great either. I don't know what is going to push us over the edge to feeling better all around and I don't know how to go about finding it. I'm pretty sure that tv isn't going to help but that's all I can muster at the moment. That and crossing my fingers and hoping with all of my might for a decent night's sleep. Really, that's probably what we all need the most.